September 25, 2015: Dancing with Ann-Kathrin
Jenny's mother had managed to bring me back to a normal state. Surprisingly, she didn't respond anymore after I told her that I no longer felt depressed and was ready to continue studying and look for my soulmate.
While I was able to attend the last lectures before the semester break regularly, I didn't understand anything academically, especially in theoretical physics, as I had missed so much. I also didn't pass the exams I had signed up for.
September 25, 2015. I was on my way to the last lecture of the summer semester when I decided to give love a new chance. Just before the main entrance of the university, I took out my phone and checked today's horoscope. Career, not so much. Health, somewhat okay. But these categories were secondary because the most important thing for me was still the love horoscope. It was supposed to prophesy a love characterized by a deep spiritual connection. After all, that was what I was searching for!
In the daily horoscope, there was something that prompted me to skip the mathematics lecture. So, I turned around before reaching the main entrance and headed to the city center. According to my interpretation of the horoscope, it had to be a girl I didn't know yet because I could hardly imagine Jana coming back to me out of the blue.
Strolling through the city and sipping coffee, I now focused all my attention on the female passersby. Everywhere I looked, I saw beauties. But what did it mean to be beautiful? There were millions of women in the world who were beautiful. Blonde hair, ripped jeans, white sneakers, a fashionable bag on their arm, and the latest iPhone in hand. Hot, very hot, but nothing extraordinary that would attract my heart.
My gaze became more and more bored until I stopped for a short while. I had to decide between going straight ahead or turning. After staring at my shoes for a moment, I turned. The other side of the street was completely empty, but suddenly, a girl surprised me as she walked out of a dental practice to my right. I stopped, and for a brief moment, as she approached me, it must have seemed to onlookers as if I had been waiting for her.
Ann-Kathrin had smooth blonde hair, dark blue eyes, and a beautiful, flawless face. She wore glasses that suited her and made her look intelligent. When she smiled at me, it immediately prompted me to talk to her.
Before I realized it, we were so engrossed in conversation that I didn't even realize we had arrived at the train station, where she wanted to go.
She lived in Hamburg and was only visiting Hannover for a few days with her friends. After she typed her number into my phone, we hugged and went our separate ways. After that encounter, I couldn't stop smiling. Above all, I was surprised by my extroverted nature - I hadn't been so talkative and open in a long time. It was as if I were a completely different person. Full of joy and motivation, I made my way back to the university.
In the evening, I invited her to go out with me. Despite her initial resistance, we went to Dax. She arrived with two friends by car. When we were at Dax, I tried to control myself while dancing, so as not to scare her off right away.
After a while, I wanted to step outside with her briefly to get some fresh air because it was very hot inside. Outside, however, it was cool, and when I looked up at the sky, I could even see a few stars. I could have a really good conversation with her, which was rare. She had a great aura and was incredibly good at listening and asking questions. After a short break outside, we went back in.
We danced and goofed around until four in the morning. After a long farewell hug, she told me that we could go out again when she was back in Hannover in two weeks. Then she left with her friends.
Two weeks later, we had arranged to meet at the main train station at 11 p.m. and go to Baggi. I waited for her until the clock struck eleven. When I asked her via WhatsApp where she was, there was no response. Five minutes passed, ten minutes, twenty. I still had no response. Okay, I thought, maybe she'll come later. So, I went to the club anyway.
As I approached the club, I saw a few people standing in line. I joined them. But when I stood in front of the two bouncers, I was stopped and asked for my ID. When I was last at Baggi, a brief eye contact with a smile was enough to get in. This time it wasn't. I took my residence permit out of my pants pocket and held it out to one of the bouncers. He took it from me and looked at it questioningly.
"No, you're not coming in," he said without looking at me and handed me back my ID. I glanced briefly at his colleague, but he immediately turned away, as if he wanted nothing to do with it.
"Why not? You always let me in back then! Do you remember me?"
"No, not today, go somewhere else."
I knew it wouldn't help to argue with him. Still, I didn't understand why he wouldn't let me in. I was sober and decently dressed in a shirt, jeans, and white sneakers. I had never caused trouble in the club, except that my dancing style was very noticeable.
Angry, I turned around and went home. I was upset, both because of the bouncer and because Ann-Kathrin hadn't shown up or replied to me.
As soon as I got home, I tore up the paper on my table where the goal was to find a soulmate. And that stupid horoscope that influenced my daily actions and mood, I removed from the bookmarks as well. I just had enough at that moment, of desperately searching for the love of my life.
With the decision to practically start my studies from scratch, I switched to an extroverted and sociable mode. I initiated a group with the new students starting next semester, and I was determined not to miss the orientation week this time. As it will later turn out, the fresh start will be a complete success.
