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The Diary of Alexander Fufaev

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Dima, now a slim young man standing at one meter ninety with short, curly, black hair, was the son of Galina Margunova and Georgi Fufaev. He studied English literature in Samarkand and was not only fascinated by the English language but also harbored a special enthusiasm for New Zealand, where he one day hoped to emigrate. The father of Alexander Fufaev Dima and his fellow students.

On a sunny September day, while Dima was on his way home from the university, a young woman in a silver dress caught his attention. Inconspicuously, he followed her to find out where she came from. He managed to catch a fleeting glimpse of her pretty face, partially obscured by her dark hair fluttering in the wind. When she finally entered a house not far from his own apartment, joy overcame him. Almost incidentally, Dima inspected the signs on the entrance door and discovered her name: Svetlana Hatschik. She was the daughter of Lina Nazarenko and Yuri Hatschik.

At that time, Svetlana lived with an older woman who was already frail and dependent on the help of others. She took care of her. The apartment they shared was quite small, but Svetlana didn't mind because her priority was to study German literature at the university – and this apartment was close to the university. She even undertook the journey of eighty kilometers to Kattaqorgon to visit her parents Lina and Yura, as well as her two years younger brother Sasha.

On the first day of the second semester, Svetlana received an invitation to a student party. At first, she hesitated to go because she hardly had time due to her university assignments. However, her friend, who also studied German literature, eventually convinced her to at least make a brief appearance.

Dima was also present at this party. He was extremely surprised when he recognized the young woman whom he had recently encountered in the park and who had fascinated him so much. Dima was not exactly shy, but initially, he found it difficult to approach the beautiful woman whom he unexpectedly saw again at this party. After drinking some wine to gather some courage, he finally decided to ask Svetlana to dance. This dance was to last for ten years...

1992

Early in the morning, clouds gathered over Samarkand, darkening the rising sun. The streets were quiet. The wind whistled through the city, causing the leaves of the trees to rustle. Thunder rumbled in the distance. The window was open. Svetlana lay in the bed of Maternity Hospital No. 2, listening to the raindrops falling on the windowsill. A sudden pain in her abdomen made her scream. The thunderstorm grew stronger. The individual raindrops turned into a continuous roar. The door of the hospital room was thrown open, and the resulting draft slammed the rattling window shut. The nurses were now there, and the birth began. That was June 20, 1992. On that day, I, Alexander Fufaev, the son of Dima and Svetlana, saw the light of the world for the first time.



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1992-1999: Accident in the dacha. My sister. The kindergarten. The earthquakes. The fear of dogs. 1999-2000: Childhood in Novomirskiy, Russia. Fear of Deep Water. 2000-2002: My Life on Moskowskaya Street, Azov, Russia 2002-2004: Youth in Petrovsky Boulevard, Azov (Russia) 2004-2005: Life with grandparents in the village - hunting, in the fields, slaughtering. My role model Uncle Sascha. First contact with a computer. Statement to the police. Stepfather 2005-2007: Life in Germany. Förder school. Russian friends. Computer addiction. 2007-2009: Secondary school. First German friend. Class conference. I miss Russia. World of Warcraft. 2009-2011: My rock star class teacher. The secondary school. The attempt to make it to the upper school. Contact with Albert Einstein. Love for IT specialists. 2011: Writing poems. My first time at 19. 2011-2012: Love Letter to Clara. My First Website. Smoking a Pipe. 2012-2013: Physics: From Hate Subject to Favorite Subject. My first YouTube Channel 2014: The Art of Seducing Women 08.2014: The Abitur Trip and The Discovery of Dance Sommer 2014: My First Regular Club Visits 09.2014: Physics Studies Hell 10.2014: The Encounter in the Canteen November 2014: Jana the Artist 15-01-2015: Do you love me? 02.2015: The Attempt to Contact Jana 13-02-2015: The Love Letter to Jana 14-02-2015: Valentine's Day 15-03-2015: The Death of Grandpa Yura March 2015 - April 2015: Blowjobs That Freed Me From Depression 25-09-2015: Dancing with Ann-Kathrin 5-10-2015: The First Day of Orientation Week 2015-2019: My First Relationship and the Transformation to Vegetarianism 2019: Bachelor's Degree and Panic Attacks 2019-2022: Corona pandemic, fears of the future and hellish stomach pains March 2022 - June 2022: Mara and Shinshu come into my relationship and the end of my computer game addiction 25-05-2022: The Leinweber Festival 26-05-2022: The Brunch 14-06-2022: The unredeemed birthday present 17-06-2022: Jule's Return to Germany 2-07-2022: My Sister's Wedding 3-07-2022: Jule, look! An eagle! 13-08-2022: The Extensive Decluttering of My Room 15-08-2022: Moving Into My First Shared Apartment

Minimalism Transformation Begins

+ More money
+ More free time
+ Fewer worries
+ Fewer obligations and daily problems
+ Better physical and mental health
+ Less waste
+ Less dependency



09-2022: Nico, my new friend? 09-2022: A new phase of life begins. 10-2022: Sex Dance with Katharina 11-2022: The 1% Method That Changed My Life 12-2022: The Scrimper and Cold Showers 23-12-2022: Digital Minimalism 24-12-2022: Mum knows now... 25-122022: Pets are Modern-Day Slaves 2023: My new hobby: visiting cafés and writing Google reviews January to February 2023: I Become an Advanced Minimalist February 2023: Online Scam and my Switch from an Android Phone to an iPhone 04.2023: My room seems empty. Switching from Windows to Mac. 7-04-2023: Submission of the physics master's thesis 04-2023: Life Without Fragrance and My Thought Triggers: The Urge for Sun and Women April 2023: Being Creative for the Transition to Extreme Minimalism 04-2023: Wealth Affirmation by Bodo Schäfer and the Penultimate Horcrux 05-2023: Two microfiber towels. Only have colored laundry. 5 instead of 10 T-shirts. 05-2023: Life without a freezer, decorations and coffee at home. Crown cap instead of soap dish. 05-2023: Moving Into the New Flat Share and the Daily Flood of Information 05-2023: My German YouTube Channel "Universaldenker" is Gone Forever. May 27 and 28, 2023: CSD: Making Out With a Homosexual Man? 1-06-2023: The musical performance in the bathroom and eating ice cream with Masha and Tobi 2-06-2023: The woman with the Labrador 3-06-2023: The missing binoculars 4-06-2023: Marie the theater woman 5-06-2023: The fourth housemate 6-06-2023: Forgot my rucksack with my Macbook Pro inside 7-06-2023: Mara on the bus 200 and the Cappy student 8-06-2023: "Call me by your name" at the university cinema and smartphone in my backpack instead of my pocket 18-06-2023: The email from Los Angeles and Lake Giften with family 20-06-2023: Paula the mathematician 23-06-2023: Juliane and the three positive things 27-06-2023: A woman pays me a compliment 29-06-2023: Rainy Conti Campus summer party 2-07-2023: Life doesn't punish me, it educates me July 4, 2023: "Little Women" makes me want to continue writing my story July 6, 2023: The woman without the Labrador July 8, 2023: The vegan in the summer dress and the toast July 9, 2023: Katy Bowman and the chair-free life July 10, 2023: My last presentation at university and the red-haired Mara July 12, 2023: Less input on the go and no Spotify July 21, 2023: Small comb instead of big hairbrush July 22, 2023: Trimming instead of shaving. Life without razors and less porn consumption July 23, 2023: The 7-day NoFap experiment and "Oppenheimer" at the movies July 24, 2023: Advancing minimalism: reduce socks, underpants, trousers July 25, 2023: Seborrheic dermatitis. Does the medication fight the cause? July 26, 2023: Life without a desk and office chair July 28, 2023: Match with Steffi and the frightened flower lady July 30, 2023: An amazing retirement home utopia from my mother July 31, 2023: Two large, black dogs. Avoid fries. The high-voltage power line August 8, 2023: On the other side of the shared apartment casting August 12, 2023: Do not add salt to food. Still water instead of sparkling water. Avoid ketchup. Anna from Seattle August 16, 2023: Malinda the petite and my coffee addiction August 17, 2023: Developing cold resistance and reducing WLAN radiation August 18, 2023: Lupin coffee as a coffee alternative August 19, 2023: Why I no longer want to invest in the stock market August 20, 2023: Reverse myopia. White lettering on a black background. August 21, 2023: Customize backpack. Use less paper outside the home August 22, 2023: Overcoming my fear of heights August 23, 2023: I no longer own any jackets August 24, 2023: The call from Uncle Sasha. Without a coat in winter? August 25, 2023: Life without a dishwasher. Cleaning dishes and hair with water only. Stairs instead of elevator. August 26, 2023: Life without computer mice and only with a trackpad August 27, 2023: Clean yourself with water only. No more sunglasses and no more batteries. August 29, 2023: Sleep without a pillow. Avoid vitamin B12 overdose. No more cell phone case and only 2 shorts. August 30, 2023: Life without an alarm clock and only one bed sheet. No more laundry basket. August 31, 2023: Try out toe socks. Short instead of long charging cable September 1, 2023: Switch to barefoot shoes? September 2, 2023: Walking barefoot, sperm quality and black yoga mat September 4, 2023: Date with Steffi. Merino wool experiment and 1 sweater instead of 3 September 6, 2023: Anna the Beautiful September 8, 2023: Switch to barefoot shoes. Enthusiasm for merino wool. 5 instead of 7 underpants September 9, 2023: Eckhart Tolle and three dreams September 10, 2023: Overcome fear of deep water. Peel a watermelon. September 11, 2023: I have 3 underpants instead of 5. Anna didn't come on the date. September 12, 2023: Living with just one towel September 13, 2023: Two seat neighbors and the vaginal suppository September 14, 2023: I have 18 hangers instead of 19. The tall student with the birthmark September 15, 2023: My flirting strength is expressive dance September 16, 2023: My other flirting strength is eye contact September 17, 2023: Life with just a pair of shorts September 18, 2023: T-shirt switch to merino wool September 19, 2023: I have 3 instead of 5 T-shirts and 16 instead of 18 hangers. Reducing fever with thoughts September 20, 2023: Not owning cutlery knives. And 15 instead of 16 coat hangers. No more small bags. September 21, 2023: I own 4 pairs of socks instead of 5. Bumble-Elena has ghosted me September 22, 2023: Dating apps are not good for me. I have 10 hangers instead of 13 and a more compact clothes rail September 23, 2023: Stomach ache due to binge eating September 24, 2023: Learned to stand on my head. Analyzed my dog phobia. Backpack perfectly adjusted. September 25, 2023: Sleeping on a 3.5 cm mattress topper instead of an 8 cm mattress September 26, 2023: My first all-in-black photos as a minimalist 27-09-2023: I want to be elastic. Sleeping with the window open? 28-09-2023: The last karate lesson and bed hardness upgrade 29-09-2023: I no longer own a fridge

Living without a refrigerator

+ More money
+ More sustainable living
+ More space
+ Easier relocation
+ Healthier food
+ Less waste
+ Fewer dependencies



30-09-2023: No more bank account fees. Use Ecosia. Prefer open source. 1-10-2023: Slow Eating 2-10-2023: I want to learn body language 3-10-2023: Domain changed from "universaldenker.org" to "fufaev.org" 4-10-2023: Resource consumption of the website reduced 5-10-2023: Once Merino wool, always Merino wool 6-10-2023: No more canteen food and decaffeinated coffee 7-10-2023: Lucid dreams and Carmen, the environmental engineer 8-10-2023: Try out the Penny Board 9-10-2023: Grounding and walking barefoot through the village. Awkward! 10-10-2023: Protect your hearing and shop barefoot in the city 11-10-2023: Laptop as productivity machine and no-coffee challenge failed 12-10-2023: Life without a bike, email app and browser bookmarks 13-10-2023: News stresses me out, brushing teeth without toothpaste, HD instead of 4K 14-10-2023: Minimalist digital security: More independence from my phone number and laptop 15-10-2023: I am character type 4 in the personality enneagram 17-10-2023: Lightly clothed at 0 degrees and more productive without internet in the library 18-10-2023: A lesbian student, a serious lawyer, meeting Annika and my resolution to live without a stove 19-10-2023: Only wash dishes with water, no password manager and no more iCloud 20-10-2023: Essentialism. Eating with hands and tooth abrasion 21-10-2023: Flexible thinking and the melancholy after good movies 22-10-2023: Don't link opinion to identity and use your head instead of your hard disk to save your data 23-10-2023: A single email address, digital order and Anna's sign of life 24-10-2023: Psychokinesis, the inner fire and my master's certificate 25-10-2023: I have 3 instead of 4 pairs of socks and 8 instead of 10 hangers 26-10-2023: Man in Black. Eating leftovers from strangers and the new black winter hat 27-10-2023: No more washcloths. 7 instead of 8 hangers and the disadvantage of having a lot of time 28-10-2023: Why I want a prepaid card and thoughts of being homeless 29-10-2023: Wash armpits with water only, life without time, Luisa von der Fuchsmühle and the magical amulet 30-10-2023: I looked at my watch 34 times and met Sarah again 31-10-2023: Toothbrush shortened and no calendar app on the smartphone 1-11-2023: Hide time displays and Larissa, the fairytale woman 2-11-2023: Life without a closet. 3 instead of 7 hangers and my habit of lying 3-11-2023: Reading body language live, micro-expressions and dry dabbing instead of dry rubbing 4-11-2023: Experiment: dumb phone instead of smartphone 5-11-2023: Life without hangers and with only two pairs of merino socks. Thought experiment on the skin microbiome. 6-11-2023: Dumb phone reduces anxiety. Sophie the Cold. Only organic products and no canned food? 7-11-2023: I have 2 underpants instead of 3 and the ability to shake off thoughts 8-11-2023: I own 2 instead of 3 T-shirts 9-11-2023: "When the world ends, you will survive" 10-11-2023: Washing yourself without drying yourself? 11-11-2023: Cooking with organic food and inspiration from raw food nutrition 12-11-2023: Rapid drain on my social battery at casting and the reason why 13-11-2023: My definition of cleanliness, the idea of being my own hairdresser and Maxi from the HanoMacke 14-11-2023: I'm going to trim the sideburns too and one sweater won't do 15-11-2023: How to increase your chances of winning the Nobel Prize 22-fold and trying to drink tea in the HanoMacke 16-11-2023: Measuring my eyes for laser eye surgery and Julia, the tattooed educator 17-11-2023: I no longer see black before my eyes and no more chest rash after sweating 18-11-2023: The encounter with Samara Morgan from The Ring 19-11-2023: Constant break-ups and reconciliations annoy me 20-11-2023: Julia the tattooed educator: No, Anna the beautiful: Yes 21-11-2023: Walking distances of less than 2 km and one pair of shoes is not enough 22-11-2023: Do not cut vegetables and eat the stalk of the tomato 26-11-2023: Minimalist cooking: Don't use spices? 27-11-2023: Why cooked food, not raw food, is malnutrition. Organic banana peel instead of B12 supplement? 29-11-2023: I let myself be dazzled by Anna the Beautiful 30-11-2023: Heart has neurons and generates a magnetic field 1-12-2023: Reducing infection probability 2-12-2023: Installed dating app out of desperation 3-12-2023: Dream about Jule 4-12-2023: Rebekka the loner and the second measurement of my eyes 5-12-2023: Upgrading the gloves to merino wool and a strange dream 7-12-2023: The 18-year-old special needs teacher with the black ribbon 8-12-2023: Carmen is so sexy 9-12-2023: My 5 mistakes when partying 10-12-2023: Note physical condition and face yoga 11-12-2023: Weight gain is not just calorie intake 12-12-2023: The day of the eye laser surgery

Life without glasses


13-12-2023: A life without glasses begins 14-12-2023: A lazy day 15-12-2023: Vacuum cleaner robot from mom. Leptin resistance. Polygamous or rather polyamorous? 16-12-2023: Sport without glasses is great 17-12-2023: Sitting on the hard floor 18-12-2023: Spending money on dating app 19-12-2023: Urge to urinate at night 20-12-2023: Hanna and 2 instead of 1 sweater 21-12-2023: Great feeling to dance without glasses 22-12-2023: Had a one-night stand 23-12-2023: ONS wasn't good for me. Why I don't want a relationship with me. Am I suitable for polyamory? 24-12-2023: 90% of the population breathes incorrectly 25-12-2023: Always prefer nose breathing. I feel like playing World of Warcraft. I like Franzi 26-12-2023: Gaming as a minimalist 1-01-2024: My New Year’s resolutions for 2024 2-01-2024: Keeping oneself in check 3-01-2024: Sleeping on the yoga mat. No more dating apps. Avoid overbreathing. 4-01-2024: The Sigma man 5-01-2024: Breathing too much causes mineral deficiency, Johanna the Violinist and debilitating seborrheic eczema 6-01-2024: I no longer own any bed sheets. Feline at Hugendubel 7-01-2024: Annika with the falafel wrap 8-01-2024: Nuts and the long digestion time 9-01-2024: HanoMacke date with Sarah, the medicine student 10-01-2024: Jogging with a closed mouth 11-01-2024: Inspiration from Tom Riddles: The Diary of Alexander Fufaev 12-01-2024: Astrid the nerdy economist, a spontaneous date with Nastya and the mind-reversal method 13-01-2024: Chewing a lot, chewing hard things 14-01-2024: My personal affirmation with 9 points 15-01-2024: Weekly work plan. Sweatpants upgrade. Lesbian Anna and Marie the vet 16-01-2024: Luisa, the Hannover 96 crocheter 17-01-2024: Jordis the crypto investor. An acting student and Konni. 18-01-2024: 111 impulses for a happy life 19-01-2024: Mara the pigeon catcher and my birth number 20-01-2024: Death by COVID-19 vaccination? 21-01-2024: Reunion with Hanna and her dog Elli 22-01-2024: Me, the philistine 23-01-2024: Producing short instead of long videos 24-01-2024: Olivia, the hot lawyer 25-01-2024: The Soulmaster by Maxim Makevich 26-01-2024: Favorite tasks. Switching to eSim. Cleaning out the tote bag. Thinner yoga mat 27-01-2024: Albert-Einstein-Straße and the finger surgery due to skin picking 28-01-2024: Living with a prepaid card 29-01-2024: Halos after eye laser surgery 30-01-2024: Evolutionary misdevelopment of humans 31-01-2024: Gothic soundtracks in the HanoMacke with Olivia 1-02-2024: The attempt to drink only water 2-02-2024: Applying a bandage to the finger yourself 3-02-2024: The crappy day 4-02-2024: Skin problems due to flake picking? 5-02-2024: Fever, removing stitches and the finger scar 6-02-2024: Sweat-drenched dreams 7-02-2024: The path to my true soul task 8-02-2024: How to develop a revolutionary physics theory 9-02-2024: Extreme dermatitis flare-ups 10-02-2024: Sex dreams 11-02-2024: Switch to Inkscape 12-02-2024: Speed Reading and my reading speed 13-02-2024: What it feels like to masturbate again 14-02-2024: Switching from MacBook Pro to MacBook Air. LaTeX Instead of Office and Other Software Changes 15-02-2024: Instant messengers are not good for me 16-02-2024: Life without WhatsApp because it makes my life more difficult. Less advertising and Gesa the Pious

Life without Instant Messengers


17-02-2024: Life without subscriptions and the digital nomad 18-02-2024: My sister's cash stuffing method 19-02-2024: Saving money by switching health insurance 20-02-2024: Privacy boost 21-02-2024: I am 372 months old 22-02-2024: Why I no longer want to use cloud services 23-02-2024: Chakra activation and the browser tabs 24-02-2024: Dream of Mara and withdrawal symptoms 25-02-2024: Dopamine detox and avoiding YouTube 26-02-2024: Life without headphones 27-02-2024: Should I invest in the stock market? 28-02-2024: Liability insurance and the empire-building of insurance companies 29-02-2024: Three-ingredient dishes and frugality. What activities do I like? 1-03-2024: Washing laundry in the sink. Thoughts about my bank account system. 02-03-2024: 3-Bank-Account-Model 03-03-2024: I don't know how much I earn 04-03-2024: Analyzing Mom's finances 05-03-2024: Reflecting on Mom's finances 06-03-2024: Nauseous after Mom's financial analysis and stomach aches 07-03-2024: Still feeling sick 08-03-2024: In the HanoMacke: Are you the Universaldenker? 09-03-2024: Bowling with family 10-03-2024: Sometimes, Mom isn't good for me 11-03-2024: Charlotte the farmer and my first offense 12-03-2024: Giving thanks before meals 13-03-2024: My first physics textbook 14-03-2024: Reading esoteric stuff 15-03-2024: Argument with Mom. She's not good for me... 16-03-2024: In the Baggi: Are you a prophet? 17-03-2024: Barbara and writing useful non-fiction 18-03-2024: Sleeping on the yoga mat without a pillow 19-03-2024: Writing a book about minimalism 20-03-2024: The backpack-tote bag problem 21-03-2024: English physics textbook completed 22-03-2024: Masterful minimalism and the Matrix moves in the club 23-03-2024: The numbing of my loneliness 24-03-2024: The Internet without cookies 25-03-2024: Wash hands less often. Wash hands without soap? 26-03-2024: Intense argument with mom and the Fufaev spawn 27-03-2024: Forgiveness and phone call with Barbara 28-03-2024: No more SEO. Buying merino clothing. Strong desire for sex. 29-03-2024: Spork instead of spoon and fork 30-03-2024: Sweeping instead of vacuuming. Sad dream about Jule. Washing machine troubles. The women's quota is nonsense. 31-03-2024: Double kiss on the hand 1-04-2024: Folding techniques for clothes 2-04-2024: The organ clock and the interview about AI 3-04-2024: Fear of female touches and David Goggins 4-04-2024: Me as a self-observer, therapists are unnecessary. The towel upgrade, sweater upgrades. Cut the backpack handle. Other upgrade ideas. 5-04-2024: I am the son of God, Hanna the political scientist, upgrades for underwear, water bottle, and sweater 6-04-2024: The genius grandma trick. Upgrading underwear to merino wool. Isolating from the flat share party. Idea to sleep in the garden. 7-04-2024: I counted my possessions: It came to 39. 8-04-2024: More effective packing system and cloud reading 9-04-2024: Nature as a friend and analog emergency data 10-04-2024: Backpack upgrade with carabiners, mini compass, and scissors upgrade 11-04-2024: Rika the behavioral economist and the prepper scene 12-04-2024: Do I have an Amazon shopping addiction? 13-04-2024: Eva the pediatrician, Dune II, and the laptop-free day 14-04-2024: Picking dandelions instead of buying arugula 15-04-2024: Reunion with Lea and manifesting 16-04-2024: Knowledge about trees and plants. Openness to the spiritual. Sitting on the floor in Hugendubel. Emergency food? 17-04-2024: Discovery of palmistry and Leonie the librarian 18-04-2024: My openness to polyamory 19-04-2024: The sleeping bag experiment and the armpit hair trimming 20-04-2024: Opening closed doors with a debit card and sleeping bag instead of a blanket 21-04-2024: The first night in the sleeping bag and Ayleen the Katjes snacker 22-04-2024: Namita the philosopher and the date with Barbara 23-04-2024: Antonia the great special educator and the fire steel 24-04-2024: Titanium lunchbox instead of glass, knowledge about wind, Julia the great special educator, and cinema: Civil War 25-04-2024: Less smartphone, more inner pain 26-04-2024: Analyzed my emotional trigger 27-04-2024: Judith, Sarah the flower artwork, and Elisabeth, who touched my heart 28-04-2024: Longing, loneliness, and falling in love at the same time 29-04-2024: The manual of the supernatural 30-04-2024: Sleeping on the balcony and the clairvoyant senses 1-05-2024: Applying palm reading skills and looking at my palm lines 2-05-2024: Anni the carpenter and Mascha the versatile 3-05-2024: The first attempt to open the third eye 4-05-2024: Psychotherapy in the club and kissing with an 18-year-old 5-05-2024: Slept all day... 6-05-2024: Lea the art historian and the robustness of feet 7-05-2024: Universe, surprise me positively! The surprise: Flatmates cancel my lease 8-05-2024: Sleeping in the fresh air becomes a part of my life 9-05-2024: Larissa the handball player and Jenny, who recommended New Healing to me, and the overcrowded Welfengarten on Father's Day 10-05-2024: Learning modern palm reading, donating money to beggars, Mara the pigeon rescuer's friend, and Ili the concert-goer from NRW 11-05-2024: The discovery of mudras, sleeping in the community garden, liberation from cloud services, and Marie the console gamer 12-05-2024: Skin texture and finger mobility in palm reading, releasing sacral chakra blockages, and brunch with my family 13-05-2024: Minor lines in palm reading and a porn after a long time 14-05-2024: Marlena, Mia, and the pink Helene (not Fischer) and the type of guy I would be attracted to as a gay man 15-05-2024: Fingerprints in palm reading. Walking barefoot through Hannover's city for the first time. Reversing genetic hair loss with UV radiation.

Barefoot Through Life

+ Reduction of inflammation in the body
+ Most sustainable way to move
+ Better balance
+ Better EPA/DHA biosynthesis
+ More courage in life
+ Strong foot muscles
+ Robust sole
+ Less cold feet
+ Connection with Mother Earth
+ More money in life (fewer shoes and socks)



16-05-2024: The thousandth attempt to quit coffee and the question "What will the neighbors think?" 17-05-2024: Shaving causes nutrient deficiency. "I would like your life." Life without shoes? 18-05-2024: CSD in Hanover. Lea and Leah, Lena the energy goddess, Desiree the lesbian (the one kissing men), and Nina the emotionally cold Scorpio 19-05-2024: Post-festival depression, CSD street festival, Andreas the DAX legend, Lena the exotic dancer, and Jasmin from the pigeon rescue 20-05-2024: For the first time barefoot on the train 21-05-2024: For the first time barefoot on the bus and on campus. The first woman I approached to barefoot. 22-05-2024: My longest meditation. Mother does not accept my life. Eckhart Tolle as a role model. Analog instead of digital clock. Nutrient deficiency due to mood swings and eating? 23-05-2024: Barefoot, without taking shoes. Discussion between my ego voice and the external observer. Oh my Güde, a beautiful medical student with an ape line. 24-05-2024: Saving city pigeons barefoot, the crocheting Kira and Thalea the LSD goddess 25-05-2024: A vision for my future. First time barefoot in the cinema and Heike from Leipzig 26-05-2024: Forgot short pants. Watched "Scarface" for the first time. 27-05-2024: Rain against hair loss. Sprint barefoot over the glass shards. 28-05-2024: I only own one pair of socks. Barefoot in the library. And for the first time scrounging money on the street. 29-05-2024: The word "mine" causes suffering and "Recognize the next as yourself." 30-05-2024: Swapping pigeon eggs and the day I stopped searching for who I am 31-05-2024: Zoe the law student. Natalie, who wanted to pick up her pants from the tailor. Johanna the enthusiastic cyclist 1-06-2024: Conti Campus Summer Festival 2024. First time dancing barefoot. Gwen, a friend for 10 minutes. 2-06-2024: Recovery Sunday. Starting a 14-day no-bread experiment tomorrow. 3-06-2024: Hand instead of comb. Blue filter permanently on. Not trimming armpit hair? Eating strawberry leaves. Started learning how to do the splits. 4-06-2024: Fruits and vegetables hydrate better than tap water. Lena picks up the phone. "Planet of the Apes" in the cinema. 5-06-2024: When you manifest a red-haired goddess, you only see red-haired ones. Living in shared flats for subletting? 6-06-2024: Upgraded barefoot shoes to Leguano Classics. Thoughts as a result of telepathy. 7-06-2024: Matilda, the extremely talkative goddess and the fun in Dax Club. 8-06-2024: Matilda is bipolar, and I let her down. 9-06-2024: Guilt about Matilda. The severe hair loss has completely disappeared. 10-06-2024: A day with Matilda. Total overwhelm. My roommates are heartless. 11-06-2024: Next overwhelming day with Matilda. BoxHotel. Research on bipolarity. 12-06-2024: Sex with a goddess 20 years older and the storm ringing at night. 13-06-2024: Invited Matilda to Borsum 14-06-2024: With Matilda in Borsum. 15-06-2024: Today's day is a mix of Shutter Island and Catch Me If You Can. 16-06-2024: Intense argument with my mother. Is Matilda manipulating? 17-06-2024: I'm packing my things and leaving. I decide to get a driver's license. New chapter in life? 18-06-2024: Started working on the driver's license. Matilda seems normal. First time without a condom. 19-06-2024: Switched yoga mat for a sleeping pad. Relaxing. Reducing mania with sadness. 20-06-2024: Dealing with bipolar disorder and my 32nd birthday. 21-06-2024: Apartment search. Too risky without liability insurance? 22-06-2024: Less dependent on the laptop. Drinking pouch instead of a water bottle. Plasma lighter instead of fire steel. Birthday dinner. 23-06-2024: First-aid course for the driver's license. Email from Lena the energy goddess. 24-06-2024: Mental exhaustion and eBook "Material Detox" published. Bureaucracy day. 25-06-2024: Deleted Discord account. Citizen's benefit application. Lena and I, fate? 26-06-2024: Has God heard me? Matilda is voluntarily in the clinic. 27-06-2024: Optimization thoughts about the backpack and laptop-tablet transition. 28-06-2024: Backpack and power adapter upgrades. 2-in-1 pants instead of 2 pants. Carabiners instead of key rings. 29-06-2024: Caller ID suppression turned on. Matilda has reappeared. Is this stalking? 30-06-2024: I am letting my hair grow long. Ambulance. 1-07-2024: Transition from laptop to tablet. Backpack optimizations. Lydia and the visit to the psychiatric ward. 2-07-2024: Dictating instead of typing on the tablet. Further backpack optimizations. Paying with mobile phone. Promising apartment viewing and Lena's call. 3-07-2024: Controlling the tablet by voice instead of with fingers. Visit from Matilda. 4-07-2024: Apartment viewing barefoot. Lucy, the great festival goddess. Serious conversation with Matilda. Learning about borderline. 5-07-2024: No more tablet. Living and writing only with a smartphone. A warning from the hotel. 6-07-2024: For the first time barefoot in the forest and the benefits of forest bathing. 7-07-2024: Ticks infestation after walking barefoot in the forest. 8-07-2024: Apartment approval and the lesson learned. At the job center. Citizen's money is a luxury lifestyle. HanoMacke is forever closed. Titta, the beautiful autistic. 9-07-2024: Giftener See with the family. Overcoming shame of being unshaved. Properly soaking up vitamin D. Van life daydreams. 10-07-2024: Podcast by Pia Kraftfutter. Whole day without energy because of yesterday's coffee. 11-07-2024: A bad day turns good. City beach. Vivian the sustainable and Jassi, who takes a different path. 12-07-2024: My first driving lesson. No cash disaster. Paxino. 13-07-2024: Lease agreement arrived. Northern cemetery. MyKoffje and the encounter with the old acquaintance. 14-07-2024: Nostalgic feelings in Linden. Café K. Topless in the field, overcoming shame. 15-07-2024: Sex conversations with the driving instructor. 16-07-2024: Jogging barefoot. Finally scheduled simulator lessons. Thoughts of Lena. 17-07-2024: Radical decision: Deletion of physics content on my blog. New path. 18-07-2024: Mental work generates glutamate in the brain. Practicing swimming in the bathtub. 19-07-2024: Material detox as a physical book. Jowiese with the family. 20-07-2024: Learning to swim. Veggie brunch with the family in the KUFA. 21-07-2024: Application as a promoter for animal protection. 22-07-2024: Why I would protect animals. Dreaming of Lena. The tin drum. 23-07-2024: Café Frida. How to convince others? 24-07-2024: Long-distance trip. Head and joint pain with fever. Am I dying? 25-07-2024: I'm still alive. Second long-distance trip. Try speed dating? 26-07-2024: The handover of keys. Mobile data instead of DSL. 27-07-2024: Citizen's money approved. 28-07-2024: Thoroughly cleaning the bathroom in my apartment from top to bottom. 29-07-2024: Job interview as a promoter and painting the bedroom. 30-07-2024: Orders for the apartment. Hypoglycemia due to too much sugar. 31-07-2024: Painting the bedroom in my apartment. 1-08-2024: Driving lesson. Painting the kitchen in my apartment. 2-08-2024: Changing outlets, assembling shelf and table, installing lampshade 3-08-2024: At the Maschsee Festival. 4-08-2024: Finished painting. Changing outlets. Hanging up garlands. Letting Lena go. 5-08-2024: Shopping for the apartment and the drama in the evening 6-08-2024: Theoretical exam. The electrician. Changing the bathroom faucet. Bed ordered. 7-08-2024: Drag show and dancing barefoot at the Maschsee Festival. Pia the sustainable social worker. First night in my apartment. Bumble installed. 8-08-2024: Bed set up. Symptoms of illness. 9-08-2024: At IKEA despite being sick 10-08-2024: Installing lampshade. Hanging pictures. The typical online dating problems. Clara the animal rescuer 11-08-2024: Date with Mala. Bought condoms. Is it about to get serious? 12-08-2024: Learning from the electrician. My sister's birthday 13-08-2024: First simulator lesson for manual transmission. Small refrigerator. RGB fairy lights for dancing. Lawinia. 14-08-2024: New shower head. At Mala's home. Judith also barefoot now? 15-08-2024: Thoughts on polyamory. Simulator drive. Pirogi with family. 16-08-2024: A dream from Jule. Codos Coffee and cinema in Hildesheim. Bathroom and hallway finished. Bumble deleted again. 17-08-2024: Zora in Hildesheim distributed posters of me in the city. KUFA brunch. Hilde dances in the KUFA 18-08-2024: I don't publish everything. Am I not a feminist? 19-08-2024: Encounter with Marlene. HanoMacke open again. Yay. 20-08-2024: It's good that not everyone likes me. Family dispute over my diary. 21-08-2024: My first trance dance and Tara, the most beautiful brunette goddess in the world. Fear of my diary? 22-08-2024: Thoughts on masculine and feminine energy. Kitchen set up. 23-08-2024: Landed at Old Inn. To be rich and famous? 24-08-2024: Bought a washing machine. Street festival at Sedanallee. 25-08-2024: Apartment is finished. I am emotionally exhausted. Switching to linen clothing? Poco-Loco? 26-08-2024: A strange dream. FairTeiler in Hildesheim. Poco-Loco festival this weekend. 27-08-2024: University of Hildesheim. First real manual transmission driving lesson. 28-08-2024: List of my resolutions. My new favorite non-fiction book. Trance dance with cocoa. 29-08-2024: Meeting with Nico at Sissi and Franz. More barefooters on the road. 30-08-2024: Poco Loco Festival - Day 1 31-08-2024: Poco Loco Festival - Day 2 01-09-2024: Poco Loco Festival - Day 3 02-09-2024: A Nightmare. A Demon Inside Me? Intake of B Vitamins. 03-09-2024: Semen tried. Other supplements. 04-09-2024: Circular hair loss due to iron deficiency. My zero-waste to-do list. 05-09-2024: Start of a plastic-free life. Zero-Waste transformation. Unpackaged store "Grammliebe".

Plastic-Free Life

+ Reduce accumulation of plastic in the body
+ Less burden on animals and the environment
+ Less waste at home
+ One less trash can



06-09-2024: Julia visits me 07-09-2024: First Zero Waste shopping at Penny. Picnic and nude swimming pond. Protein powder and Kamasutra. 08-09-2024: The little everyday stoic. 09-09-2024: Plant protection products. No longer living vegan? Application as a physics teacher. Gluten-free milk alternatives. Book about a healthy gut. 10-09-2024: Start of the No-Gluten experiment. Practical driving test. Importance of amino acids. Another favorite book. 11-09-2024: Number of flatulence per day. Barefoot at 10 degrees. Color of clothing is harmful. Zinc intake. Soaking legumes. Veganism is frustration. Is supermarket vegetables unhealthy? 12-09-2024: Gluten is poison. Microcirculation against hair loss. I am allowed to drive a car. Lena is back? 13-09-2024: About gut rehabilitation. Psyllium husks. First time oil pulling. Looking for unpackaged / gluten-free products in Hildesheim. Transeuropa 2024 (Sonic Interventions). Amazing compliment at the Old Inn. 14-09-2024: Is occasional smoking healthy? City library. Kicked out of the Transeuropa closing party. Complaint against Zora Hildesheim. 15-09-2024: Exclusion at the Transeuropa Festival. 16-09-2024: Psychological disorders. 3 things that make me unhappy. In the university library. Café “On Campus”. 17-09-2024: Surprising encounter. Reduced cleaning cloths from 5 to 3. Zero Waste stationery? Zero Waste first aid kit? Zero Waste shoes? Discovered worm composting. 18-09-2024: Making clothes and shoes myself? Zero Waste furniture-free café? Book about good sleep. Spontaneous reunion. First time speed dating 19-09-2024: My first blood donation. Evergreen. More stoic insights. 20-09-2024: Decision: No dyed clothing. Friction for hair growth. 21-09-2024: Neustadt weekly market. Driver's license is here. Weekly markets instead of supermarkets. My lecturer and therapist. At Pans Kitchen and ReSales. Unibrow. 22-09-2024: Sleeping naked with earplugs. Sena’s Choice Café. Ernst-Ehrlicher-Park. Thega Film Café. Facts about sugar. Grass instead of benches. 23-09-2024: Awakening in another dream. The 10 reflection questions. My electricity consumption. Niko Rittenau. Nutrition diary. Refrigerator turned off for now. 24-09-2024: Interesting facts about B12, iron, calcium, zinc, iodine, and selenium. I love Hildesheim. Eating millet with hands.

Eating with Hands

+ More joy eating than with cutlery
+ Food tastes better
+ No more burning your tongue (lower cancer risk)
+ A treat for the hands
+ Stronger microbiome
+ More mindful eating
+ Spiritual way to eat



25-09-2024: My first vital substance analysis. Pirella Café. Eating stuffed peppers with potato soup by hand. Stress creates cravings for food. 26-09-2024: Café “Mademoiselle”. Facts about sleep. Eating fried vegetables by hand. Spirulina or chlorella? 27-09-2024: New nail length. Scalp problems still present, without redness. Oversea Café and Mr. Lecker Döner shop. Eating lentil dal by hand. Wooden cutlery. 28-09-2024: Collecting trash in Hildesheim. A barefoot challenge. 29-09-2024: Analyzing my blood values. Breakfasting like in Asia. First time Tarot. Scalp invasion. 30-09-2024: Intermittent drinking. Cloth optimization. Biowaste is moldy. First time chlorella. A phone call that gave me goosebumps. 1-10-2024: My role models. Discovery of jute fabric. No cutlery knives. Again sleeping on the floor. City magic Café. 2-10-2024: My first water quality test. Living without cutlery. A prohibition in the Kulturfabrik Hildesheim. 3-10-2024: Are shoes harmful to health? My first shard of glass in my foot. Eating with hands for two. 4-10-2024: Avoiding cooking oils. Returning to baking soda as deodorant. Eating cake at the café by hand. Further transition to wooden dishes. Not moistening the toothbrush. 5-10-2024: Lugol's iodine solution. Videos in the diary. Hemp underwear. 6-10-2024: Integrating Feng Shui into my life. Why I have fear of commitment. Eating soup without cutlery. 7-10-2024: Sharing cake with wasps. Entering into a relationship with Julia? The decision. 8-10-2024: About my relationships and privacy. Telepathy is possible, but how? Rosemary oil against hair loss. Barefoot this winter? 9-10-2024: Sleep paralysis. No more trash can. First day with my girlfriend. Brushing teeth in a whole new way. 10-10-2024: Police statement. Fluent Body at wasmitherz. Advantage of wooden tableware. Hair loss has decreased. 12-10-2024: Megalomania. Eating on the floor. My first hemp underwear. Wooden broom instead of plastic broom. Brushing teeth with fingers? Strangers are my children? 13-10-2024: Using Minoxidil against hair loss. A new way of writing a diary. 14-10-2024: Barefoot at 7 degrees. Hildesheimer Allgemeine Zeitung. 15-10-2024: Omega-3 as antifreeze. Rinse teeth with calcium. Read Richard David Precht at home. 16.10.2024: I dream a lot. Sleeping on the carpet. Light pollution and fear of the dark. Thoughts about Mohammed.


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